Keeper of the Chaos

Finally!! The 7th WIP Update!!!!

2019-10-21T06:06:34Z

Bitch I’m back. By popular demand.

Lmao really it’s because I fixed some health problems so THE WRITING MACHINE FUNCTIONS AGAIN! =D

Anyway, I went OFF this week. 1215 words. That’s the most I’ve had since the summer! I’m really having a good time, and honestly just relieved that I can write again. It helps that I’m rewriting scenes I’ve been waiting to get to. The chapter I’m on currently is turning out exactly how it looked in my head, which is always exciting. I can’t wait for y’all to read it!

Did any of you have as much success during the week? Let me know!

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Cynical Chaos: Eric

2019-09-09T05:46:14Z

“Sabin’s gaze drifts from my face to the abyss behind us. My hopes sink to the bottom of my stomach at the sight of his expression. The brief spark of life fades until terror takes over once more. He stares ahead with a dire glare.

“No…” he whispers. Before I can respond, he’s looking at me. “Ria, run!”

I assume it’s the monsters again and ready a blast. That little glimmer in me, still refusing to let go of hope. But when I turn around to fire, I’m met with a gun against my forehead. The form of the wielder hides in the shadows, all except for a few features. Always the same. Pale green eyes. A menacing, superior grin. My blood runs cold.

“Hello, Miss Ariana."”

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The last entry of the main cast, folks! This is the main antagonist of the novel, Eric Bradley. He is Brigadier General to Panacea’s elite task force, the Seraphim. While it could be argued that Panacea as a whole are the main antags, Eric acts like a face of the organization. To Ariana and the Unseen, he is the source of their problems. It was him who captured Sabin and sparked the war. This success has put him in charge of hunting the rest of the Unseen, which is exactly what he wanted.

As always, you can click the read more to learn a little more about him! I hope you enjoyed learning about my OCs as much as I enjoyed making these. Would you like me to make some for the supporting cast as well? Let me know in the comments!!!

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Cynical Chaos: Sabin

2019-09-02T05:12:51Z

“Sabin Khilkov.
Panacea’s prodigal son. Both their top priority and their deepest loss. The savior, the guardian, humanity’s guiding light. He was much better known to the public by his code name: Eden.

My fingers absently trace along the words etched into the ID tags around my neck. Sabin’s birth date and ID number. It’s the only thing left with his real name on it. Every other time it’s Eden, or a sequence number, or some other random code name Panacea can think of to keep me from knowing they’re talking about him. He used to never take it off. I can still see his face when he gave it to me. The last time his dual-colored eyes held hope instead of fear.

“This is the only thing I’ve managed to keep away from them. Will you keep it safe for me?””

Here he is! The man, the myth, the legend! Sabin is the male lead of Cynical Chaos, and romantic interest to the MC, Ariana. Sabin spent the majority of his life on the streets, running from Panacea. Being constantly hunted, any attempt he made at human contact was met with tragedy and death to those he befriended, forcing him into a life of isolation where his only friends were the stray dogs he’d meet along his travels. Until he met Ariana. It’s his abduction that sparks the war between Panacea and the Unseen.

Sabin is the only one of my main characters that does not physically appear in the novel. His presence is instead a ghostly one, haunting the reader like he haunts Ariana’s mind.

Here’s a little bit more about him under the cut!

(oncoming cw: tiny references to child abuse and slightly more detailed references to self-harm)

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Cynical Chaos: Damali

2019-08-26T06:51:41Z

Damali knew nothing about the outside world.

Her life inside Panacea was simple. When she was awake, she was training. How to make lightning spring from her hands. Collapse buildings with a gust of wind. Asking why was met with punishment. Asking anything was met with punishment. She didn’t know who she was, where she was, or how long she’d been asleep. They did everything they could to keep her ignorant, but there was still one thing Damali knew for sure.

She was never going back.

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Say hello to my second leading lady, Damali! At the start of the story, the kids find her on the run from Panacea. She was the only successful result in the Poseidon Experiments–an attempt at giving a human control over the weather. With a wiped memory and powers out of control, there isn’t much she can offer to the kids’ cause besides unwanted attention. But while they search for a safe place to take her, it seems there might be something else after Damali as well…

Check out a little more about her under the cut!
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Cynical Chaos: Ariana Salem

2019-08-12T04:39:35Z

Ariana Salem did not know how to die quietly.

For as long as she’d had powers, she’d heard every warning: Keep your head down. Don’t draw attention. Pretend to be normal, and they won’t hurt you. Don’t ever fight back, or you’re just as bad as they are. But when Panacea attacked, viewing her and the other hosts as a threat, she did not heed the warnings. She refused to cower. They wanted a monster, and she gave it to them.

A year later, the war has no end in sight. Ariana’s greatest strength has become her weakness. She does not know how to die quietly. But every battle, every loss, every minute she spends with her loved one’s lives weighing on her shoulders, is tearing her apart. When strange storms begin popping up around the world, it’s revealed one of Panacea’s prisoners has escaped. This could be the lead needed to tip the balance back in the hosts’ favor, or the breaking point for Ariana’s health.

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YEET I’m finally posting about my ocs! =D This is the MC and narrator to the story! Every Sunday, along with my wip progress, I’ll post a new character for y’all to meet.

In the mean time, here’s a little bit more about Ria below:
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6th Wip Progress!!!!!!!!!!!!

2019-08-12T04:31:54Z

Happy Sunday!!! Sorry for the impromptu break. As I said in an earlier post, I’ve been feeling a little off lately, so there hasn’t been a whole lot of progress. BUT!!! Small progress still counts! I would do well to remember that I don’t have to write 70 million words to be a successful week (we all probably would tbh). Anyway, here’s the data!

I decided to skip ahead and write/revise in some different chapters, which resulted in an intense, heart-wrenching scene that came out of nowhere. I was crying writing it. It’s a little rough to share still or I would, but hopefully in the coming weeks you’ll see it. My final word count was 723.

Hopefully next week I’ll have a bit more progress to share, but until then!!! Get stoked for some posts introducing the three lead characters of Cynical Chaos, as well as a main intro to the novel itself! Getting back on this wagon in a big way ;)

Have a good week everybody!

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#5 and Lookin Fine!!! ;) WIP Update

2019-07-29T00:06:24Z

Y’ALL

Omg I’ve been so excited to tell you this week’s update!!!!!!!! =D WE’RE FINALLY PROGRESSING!!! I finished chapter 14, and did the revisions for 15 and 16! Yes, we’re finally back on the revision train! I’m thinking there shouldn’t be any more big, new additions I’ll have to add. There might be a few smaller scenes, but for the most part, IT’S BACK TO MY LAST STOPPING POINT!

I had gone back and redid the beginning for some school things I was sending CC in for, but before I did that, I was almost to the end. Since revitalizing the beginning, I’m STOKED to finally get through the rest! I say this every time (lol), but I feel incredible about this revision. I honestly think this is the best version it’s ever been. There’s almost something magical about it. If it’s not the grand, publish-able version future me will end up with, it’s definitely close. I can’t wait to start sharing it with everyone!!!!!!

So, this week added up to 1633 original words total. I’m gonna be keeping up the same word count goal, but now that I’m at a different point in the revision, I’m gonna need new, bigger goals!

Let’s see…

-Write/Revise at least 500 words

-Revise the Damali reveal (you know the one)

-Write the new Dark Moment

-Write the new ending and Epilogue

-Add the lines we saved for later

-Make sure all the chapter songs flow

And my most ambition goal……..

-FINISH AND READ THROUGH IT ALL BY AUG 26!!!!!!!

Wish me luck, friends!!!! I wish you the same with your own goals!!! See you next week!!! ^_^

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"The Girl Who Refused to Die" pt. 1.2

2019-07-24T19:56:50Z

(also available on ao3)

Her heart beat flipped on the monitor

once the smell of bonfires and mint

blanketed the room

She felt his weight on the bed

Slow, familiar movements

Effortless in his sway

Crawling to hover carefully

over her delicate form

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Cynical Chaos excerpt!

2019-07-23T02:12:20Z

Here we go! Besides the relationship building I mentioned before, I was able to get some cool world building details in here too. I hope you enjoy!

Here’s a little summary of CC for those who are new!

“Cynical Chaos follows fifteen-year-old Ariana Salem and her group of rebel friends, The Unseen, a year after they’ve declared war against the corrupt government organization, Panacea. The novel takes place in 2005, in an alternate timeline where an alien race called Chaos Powers attempted to destroy the world. Panacea was created in order to defeat them, but have turned corrupt since their victory, conducting human experiments and other terrors under the guise of Earth’s protection. When Ariana and her friends are discovered as human hosts to the surviving Chaos Powers, and one of their own is taken by Panacea, the kids are forced to fight for their lives and their freedom in a world that has deemed them too dangerous to exist. Ariana is left deeply damaged from the stress of war, and throughout the novel, has to come to a decision about the fate of their cause: will she continue to demand their right to freedom, or will she submit to the pressures around her before she loses anyone else, including herself?”

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4th Wip Progress Sunday!!!!

2019-07-23T01:45:17Z

OKAY it’s a little late but here’s my WIP Progress Sunday!!!! (or Monday ^^;)

Most of this week was spent finishing that scene I was telling you about last Sunday. I successfully finished it, so I’ll post an excerpt when I’m done with this. I’m basically done with this chapter though, which is really exciting!!! AHHHH!!! I’m so close to being done with this revision cycle. I can’t freakin wait. 11 years working on the same WIP, I’m DYING to get started on the next installment.

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"The Girl Who Refused to Die" pt. 1.1

2019-07-18T05:49:40Z

Hey friends!!! Comin' in with a new poem!!!

Awhile ago, I was being super emo and thinking about how the relationship with death is probably the most intimate and consistent one those of us with chronic illnesses have, and that led to the idea for a retelling of the Persephone myth, but with Persephone as a chronically ill disabled girl constantly in and out of the hospital. Think "Flirting with Death" but literally lol. This is the very first part of what I came up with! I’ll post the rest weekly.

This is another part of my mini-collection of death themed poems, called “An Internship with Death”.

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It happened like it always does

The clock ticked, and then it didn’t

Everything stilled in his presence

Death’s grand fanfare:

Silence

bellowing until his footsteps could be heard

echoing

in the hall

striding

toward her room,

she knew
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WIP Sunday 3rd Update

2019-07-15T03:30:24Z

FINALLY, I got a new update for CC!!

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hmm =/

2019-07-11T07:28:57Z

I was having a conversation with my mom on the way home today and she said something that really shook me to my core. It...makes a lot of sense to who she is as a person and what she's gone through. We were talking about someone whose kid is having behavioral problems lately, which brought up the different ways one can discipline a child, and she said (I wrote it down)

"Fear is what drives us to do the right thing"

Which, I think could be argued is true in a way, but the more I asked her about it, the more it was revealed that she was talking more about fear of punishment. She believes people avoid doing "bad" things because they're afraid of the punishment (a real life example: she avoids speeding because she doesn't want to get pulled over and/or get a ticket, whereas I tend to be more concerned with causing harm to myself or others). There's a lot to unpack to a worldview like that. When we look at people more my moms age (50-60s), and even older, this seems to be a really common ideology. There's something to be said about how this ideology has been set in place over human history, and the cycles that continue in order to keep it this way, especially in this white, Christian, working-class demographic. When I think about, it puts a lot of current things in perspective. It just kinda makes me sad.

Anyway, at some point I'm gonna write an essay about it, because again, there's...a lot to unpack.

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New Poem: "Rigor Mortis"

2019-07-07T02:48:22Z

(also available to read on ao3)

Fun Fact
for those who didn’t know,
if our muscles aren’t being used
for consistent
Movement
they’ll grow attached
to the same position
we left them in
refusing to flex out of their comfort zone
planting roots in the grounds of our bodies
so we become
stuck
buried with our mistakes
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My main YA WIP, "Cynical Chaos"! (Repost)

2019-07-07T01:18:02Z

I had so much fun making the last moodboard that I thought to make one for my main WIP, the love of my life, my beautiful kids, Cynical Chaos! =D
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Jak and Daxter Siren AU: "You Were My Light in the Sinless Ocean" (Repost)

2019-07-07T01:08:49Z

Hey friends! This is a moodboard I made from one of my side stories. It's a siren AU for the game Jak and Daxter, called "You Were My Light in the Sinless Ocean".
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"Coffin Nails"

2019-07-07T01:00:35Z

Adorn yourself

with the daggers

of the Underworld

Hex your words

with the dust of your fallen ancestors

Breathe the smoke of their labors

Hold oblivion in your hands

And command the world

with a finger

Ashes to Ashes

Nails in your coffin

There’s holiness in this salon
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"To Whom It May Concern"

2019-07-07T00:56:22Z

Dear, ****
I watched a man die today I watched a man
die
Today I watched a man die
today, die
I watched
die
Die today
I watched die
repeats on a loop
on a cycle
on a wheel
on a train track we can’t escape from
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"I Need You"

2019-07-07T00:50:28Z

Flick

The flame appears and

vanishes

Just like you

Flick

If life can be so feeble

as temporary as this flame

Then what’s the point?

Flick

What’s the point?

Flick

What’s the point?!

Flick
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"Julia"

2019-07-07T00:43:59Z

A couple years ago,
i watched this show called, “The Magicians”
and fell in love with a character named
julia.
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Meet the Author!

2019-07-07T00:11:04Z

First post, wooo!!! =D

Hey friends, it's Risa from what is now chaosonwheels! I made this blog as a dreamwidth specific place to post just about my writing journey! I'll be carrying posts over from my other account, and my writing tumblr, so sit tight while I get situated. The first original update will be tomorrow ^_^

For those who are new, it's nice to meet you! My name is Annastasia, or Arisa if you know me elsewhere. My other account is more casual, personal/fandom related, whereas here you will find my writing. If you skipped my profile, I'll typically be posting poetry, creative non-fiction essays, some fiction of various length, updates and excerpts from my YA novel, Cynical Chaos, and regular rants about my writing journey. If you like that sort of thing, I hope to see you around!

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